"My whole life is a coping strategy."

While seeing my physical therapist the other night, he asked if I liked my eating habits (an odd way to ask the question, but it got me thinking) and I babbled for a few minutes about the little things I've picked up on eating, hunger, diets, and the like. b/w line art drawing of coping

I told him about how I was at 250 lbs. in my mid-20s, my work with a nutritionist where I learned that starches shot my weight up like nobody's business, the various diets I've been on in my life, how food and money are both lifelong meditations since I tell myself so many stories about what they say about me, how fasting one day a week has taught me the difference between hunger and cravings, and the little tactics I weave into my life: make a plan for how to navigate the dessert table at the family reunion, put a hand on my belly and ask myself "Am I hungry?" when I stand in front of the candy machine (for some reason, I can't lie to myself when I do that), using the No S diet eating plan when eating normally through the week. And on and on.

He smiled and said, "Sounds like you have some great coping strategies, there."

To which I replied, without thinking, "My whole life is a coping strategy."

(There's probably a blogging rule somewhere about not making the punchline the title of your post, but I'll deal with the blog police later.)

I repeated this line to my mastermind group later and they laughed and said, "You're right."

Not quite sure what to do with this self-appraisal that bubbled up out of nowhere, but it's something more to meditate on.

 

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